Today at 4:51 I came to some realizations I thought were worth writing down. Which is unusual for me but alas here we are. It was new years eve and I ditched my friends to go to a club to dance and bring in the new year in the company of strangers. I had a good time. I did not have to compete with anyone tonight which is typically the case among my friends. Which is typically fine, I thrive on competition and I normally invite it but tonight I wanted a break from all that. The music began to turn stale someone around 1:30 and I decided to leave. I enjoyed myself but I did not enjoy every second of the night.,which is normal. There were times at the club I was happy and euphoric and other moments where I was a bit lonely and thus sad. But overall I enjoyed my self. I drove home and listened to music which made me happy. When I got home my happiness faded into emptiness because I was not home alone and there was no one to talk to about the night I had. So I continued reading Oyasumi Punpun which is a very sad manga. Most every turn of events in the comic are depressing and the main character doesn't do a very good job of coping with his life. My emptiness filled with sadness as I read on. But honestly the track of the comic that I read tonight was not that interesting so I stopped reading. I then gave thought to how I wanted to feel next. Happy, Sad, or maybe nothing at all like when you watch reruns of an old show. As I sat up thinking about this my thoughts began to wonder about the nature of life, then I though... am I an existentialist? This was a literal question as I was not until not sure what an existentialist was. So I looked up a Youtube video to learn more about the subject, which I did do but that's neither here nor there. As I pondered the philosophy I decided to take a shower. Which for me is less about being clean in more about having a place to think, sometime I take up to three a day. My shower thought lead me to ponder the nature of my own philosophy something that I've been playing around with. I can't say that I'm done with it but I now feel the need to put it all into words even if I have to over simplify my ideas for now.
I'm not going to explain anything, that's not what this is about This post it for me and my personal keeping. You know what your talking about Donovan and for now that's enough only people that know your island well might being to see where your coming from.
My Philosophy centers around Empathy and Sympathy.
First off things have soul. I say soul because I believe there to only be one and that soul is no different from thought they are one in the same.
Second, time is relative everything had already happened we are just going through the motions, BUT this does not affect our freewill.
3rd, Because of the first and second rule we are all actually the same entity, BUT this does not affect our individuality.
What this means is that there is some of you in every person and vice versa.
The guide to life is learn more about your self through others. Every priest, whore, pacifist, and conqueror is you and it's important that you understand the connection.
When you live a life where you can understand the motivations of other you will come to learn about yourself. When you learn to display compassion for others you learn compassion for yourself
When you learn that evil and good give context to each other and that you must accept both not just in yourself but in other people you free yourself. The same can be said for happiness and sadness the way you allow yourself to be happy you must also allow yourself to be sad.
I've had these thoughts for some time but these were not the thoughts I had in the shower. In the shower I thought about how happy I was tonight. And how I brought on that happiness because I choose to be happy. Also how I choose to read Oyasumi Punpun and be sad. I could choose to feel however I wanted. and so can everyone if they knew themselves well enough...I think
Or maybe I'm just dumb.
