Metal Solitude
Thom Yorke- Analyze
Grit them teeth and prepare to struggle
the path is plot and riddled with trouble
in winding roads you are befuddled
wicked thoughts begin to double.
Buried under skin deep and thick,
all and all be done with it
stab and sheath your knife so quick,
patience and practice so delicate.
Descend on them and begin to devour
it is now the witching hour
in your mouth the blood will sour
you've assimilated the horror.
Paranoid, bipolar
we are schizophrenia
we pretend to see them, they pretend to be them
and all of us seem to bend.
Dance in fields and leaves of green
the shells of cicadas and wasted things
eternally trapped in the coffin of time
all wrapped up in twisted minds.
Smile and pretend and try to remember
mental towers that last forever
happy thoughts of sweet surrender
things you do that result in pleasure.
Your coil, it betrays you
you could very well be lost
capable of being discarded
a void of endless frost.
Hold true to your inner warmth
something uniquely you
something to keep you stable
so you don't get confused.
The mind can be a scary place
you are mostly all alone
and though this place can be macabre at times
it's your trap your tomb and home.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
The New and Old Dreams
The New and Old Dreams
Iron and Wine-Such great heights
If it's real and you can feel it
then maybe it will stay
but if it dreams
then it will likely fade away...
in time
all things die
or maybe change
the dreams of yesterday
what do they mean?
energy is lost from all that is real
everything you touch
and everything you feel
the convictions of the past
what do they mean to you
how much do the old dreams shine
compared to the new?
and should you feel guilty
when the new dawn comes to?
Iron and Wine-Such great heights
If it's real and you can feel it
then maybe it will stay
but if it dreams
then it will likely fade away...
in time
all things die
or maybe change
the dreams of yesterday
what do they mean?
energy is lost from all that is real
everything you touch
and everything you feel
the convictions of the past
what do they mean to you
how much do the old dreams shine
compared to the new?
and should you feel guilty
when the new dawn comes to?
Monday, November 18, 2013
So I knew this girl...
So I knew this girl...
Malcom Mclaren-About her
Sure she wasn't Bansky in a skirt
or a fan of Miyamoto
she was kind of an awkward flirt
but she was the daughter of the moon though...
Came down from space
and fell in love with a rat
who was so turned around
he didn't know where his tail was at
the rat couldn't look at the moon princess
for she was far too bright
she was nice to him
cause she reflected the suns light
he would make up excuses
on why they couldn't be together
saying rats should be with rats
that it had been this way forever
but the moon princess was patient
she did not leave his side
even when the rat was selfish
and hid to save his pride
but one day,
the moon came down
and told the princess
that a prince had been found
"come back home daughter
and have a life"
"people would look down on you
if you were a rats wife"
conflicted and torn
the princess ran
she went to the rat
and said "here I am"
"we could be together
if you would only try"
"I can't speak for the others
but I would stay by your side"
The rat looked at the princess
in all of her splendor
and just when he thought he might surrender
he looked at his tail and swallowed his pride
and he turned away from the princess
and proceeded to lie
"rats should be with rats
or didn't you know"
"and i'll always be a rat
so you should go"
the princess left that day
without saying a thing
she went back to the moon
and took the prince's ring
She lived happily ever after
or so the people said
to this day the rat can't get her from his head...
Malcom Mclaren-About her
Sure she wasn't Bansky in a skirt
or a fan of Miyamoto
she was kind of an awkward flirt
but she was the daughter of the moon though...
Came down from space
and fell in love with a rat
who was so turned around
he didn't know where his tail was at
the rat couldn't look at the moon princess
for she was far too bright
she was nice to him
cause she reflected the suns light
he would make up excuses
on why they couldn't be together
saying rats should be with rats
that it had been this way forever
but the moon princess was patient
she did not leave his side
even when the rat was selfish
and hid to save his pride
but one day,
the moon came down
and told the princess
that a prince had been found
"come back home daughter
and have a life"
"people would look down on you
if you were a rats wife"
conflicted and torn
the princess ran
she went to the rat
and said "here I am"
"we could be together
if you would only try"
"I can't speak for the others
but I would stay by your side"
The rat looked at the princess
in all of her splendor
and just when he thought he might surrender
he looked at his tail and swallowed his pride
and he turned away from the princess
and proceeded to lie
"rats should be with rats
or didn't you know"
"and i'll always be a rat
so you should go"
the princess left that day
without saying a thing
she went back to the moon
and took the prince's ring
She lived happily ever after
or so the people said
to this day the rat can't get her from his head...
Monday, November 11, 2013
Trying to catch gold
Trying to catch gold
I'm blind to the future
and I cannot foresee
If whats on the horizon
is good for me
I'm half ostrich
so no doubt
with my head in the sand
the world turns about
opportunity's fly overhead
and I might miss a few
though I'm fairly sure
the universe will,
bring something new
as you grow older
doors only close
which is unfortunate
cause your braver as you grow
to all things in my past
half a heart of sorrows
while peering to the future
I look towards tomorrow
with hands open wide
I'll try to grab hold
desperate to reach anything
but hoping I'll catch gold
cause life is short,
precious
and sweet
I just want to live and feel
like I am complete
The Neighbourhood-Sweater Weather
I'm blind to the future
and I cannot foresee
If whats on the horizon
is good for me
I'm half ostrich
so no doubt
with my head in the sand
the world turns about
opportunity's fly overhead
and I might miss a few
though I'm fairly sure
the universe will,
bring something new
as you grow older
doors only close
which is unfortunate
cause your braver as you grow
to all things in my past
half a heart of sorrows
while peering to the future
I look towards tomorrow
with hands open wide
I'll try to grab hold
desperate to reach anything
but hoping I'll catch gold
cause life is short,
precious
and sweet
I just want to live and feel
like I am complete
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Bro
Bro
Deerhunter-Coronado
Bro you need to go.
Bro is this all you plan to be?
Lack luster and melancholy.
All cause you can't get pussy?
Because you let down your biology?
Bro don't you get it
you're suicidal
pussy is purpose
that shits survival.
Bro you'll be unhappy for all of your life.
All that matters is sex and a wife.
Cut everything else out with a knife.
or settle for a world of pain and strive.
Bro.
This is our world fucking get use to it.
No one cares unless you fuck or you screw it.
Make fucking money and then fucking do it.
The worth of a man must be proven.
This is our lot in life I hope you understand.
So dominate and prove your a man
and if you have doubts or questions to speak
man up and bury that shit deep...
Bro...
Deerhunter-Coronado
Bro you need to go.
Shes there and shes looking at you bro.
You'll lose your chance if you don't go.
The things you'll miss, you'll never know.
Have drink and go with the flow.
A few more and you'll confidence will grow.
Bro if your not sly your chances will die.
Fail to act now and surly you'll cry.
If you don't do it now, later you'll ask why?
You're a catch, it's no lie
You're a catch, it's no lie
The worst thing you could do is not act and not try.
Bro shes here but you got to remember.
You gotta fly, it's now or never.
Best case scenario you'll be together.
Worst case scenario your alone forever.
Bro whats wrong, soon she'll be gone.
Whats your problem whats taking you so long?
Jeez your pathetic, now whats wrong?
This is how you know that you are weird and you don't belong.
Bro what, is the pretty girl too good for you?
Hey bro whats your world coming to.
You ready for a life of solitude?
You happy you'll never see her nude?
You happy you'll never see her nude?
Bro is this all you plan to be?
Lack luster and melancholy.
All cause you can't get pussy?
Because you let down your biology?
Bro don't you get it
you're suicidal
pussy is purpose
that shits survival.
Bro you'll be unhappy for all of your life.
All that matters is sex and a wife.
Cut everything else out with a knife.
or settle for a world of pain and strive.
Bro.
This is our world fucking get use to it.
No one cares unless you fuck or you screw it.
Make fucking money and then fucking do it.
The worth of a man must be proven.
This is our lot in life I hope you understand.
So dominate and prove your a man
and if you have doubts or questions to speak
man up and bury that shit deep...
Bro...
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Friendship Blanket
Friendship Blanket
Fleet foxes Sun it rises
The sound we hear when no ones around
that's the sound of our thoughts hitting the ground
the sound of reality bearing down on thee
so to speak
it makes you think
and makes you shrink
at the thought of brothers
no need for cover
you are one of others
a product of lovers
in warmth you'll be smothered
for all the trouble it's worth,
life's not meant to be experienced
through the ideas of a few
open your heart
let in someone one new
being alone
is like being sick
it only hurts
and it kills quick,
let friendship
be your blanket
allow it to cover,
share your life
with new people
and in the warmth of others.
Fleet foxes Sun it rises
The sound we hear when no ones around
that's the sound of our thoughts hitting the ground
the sound of reality bearing down on thee
so to speak
it makes you think
and makes you shrink
at the thought of brothers
no need for cover
you are one of others
a product of lovers
in warmth you'll be smothered
for all the trouble it's worth,
life's not meant to be experienced
through the ideas of a few
open your heart
let in someone one new
being alone
is like being sick
it only hurts
and it kills quick,
let friendship
be your blanket
allow it to cover,
share your life
with new people
and in the warmth of others.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
That new love
That new love
Air-Run
My girl ain't into that new love
but I'm scared to let her go
my girl prefers kisses to hugs
and sun to snow,
shes delicate...
and I don't want to hurt her
cause I'm dirty like mud
and shes clear like water,
my girl ain't into that new love
full of metal and green
shes not into technology
or all the shit that I've seen,
doesn't want to be sullied
doesn't want to hurt
doesn't want to be bullied
or become one with dirt,
won't be objectified
will not be shared
refuses to do pornography
but still seems to care,
my girl ain't into that new love
and I'm not sure what to do
because I've been corrupted by new love
part of me wishes to destroy you,
to see you dirty
and watch you ache
to see you sullied
and feel you shake
to hear you moan
and watch you squirm...
If you fall in love with mud
then you become a worm...
Air-Run
My girl ain't into that new love
but I'm scared to let her go
my girl prefers kisses to hugs
and sun to snow,
shes delicate...
and I don't want to hurt her
cause I'm dirty like mud
and shes clear like water,
my girl ain't into that new love
full of metal and green
shes not into technology
or all the shit that I've seen,
doesn't want to be sullied
doesn't want to hurt
doesn't want to be bullied
or become one with dirt,
won't be objectified
will not be shared
refuses to do pornography
but still seems to care,
my girl ain't into that new love
and I'm not sure what to do
because I've been corrupted by new love
part of me wishes to destroy you,
to see you dirty
and watch you ache
to see you sullied
and feel you shake
to hear you moan
and watch you squirm...
If you fall in love with mud
then you become a worm...
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
The Goblins of Jund
The Goblins of Jund (getting there by flying lotus)
When the moon is red and glows in the sky
and the mountains sing with fire on high
when the dragons slumber nears it's end
and the high shaman locates it's den
The goblins of Jund begin their trance
they drink and sing and start to dance
down the mountain the goblins come
the festival is short and soon will be done
tears are shed but only a few
they smile at the chance to be born anew
the goblins of jund one by one
are devoured by dragons till their all gone
to be eaten by a dragon is the highest honor
they jump at the chance like there wont be another
those who witnesses the spectacle have yet to understand
but to feed someone is love and love is grand.
When the moon is red and glows in the sky
and the mountains sing with fire on high
when the dragons slumber nears it's end
and the high shaman locates it's den
The goblins of Jund begin their trance
they drink and sing and start to dance
down the mountain the goblins come
the festival is short and soon will be done
tears are shed but only a few
they smile at the chance to be born anew
the goblins of jund one by one
are devoured by dragons till their all gone
to be eaten by a dragon is the highest honor
they jump at the chance like there wont be another
those who witnesses the spectacle have yet to understand
but to feed someone is love and love is grand.
A Busted Ship
A Busted Ship
My ship is busted
and I'm stuck in space
went up some time ago
had to leave this place
luckily I'm lucky, see
cause I've failed to see
whats in front of me
the fact that I
cannot survive
off planet
for long, alive
so for now I'm
unaware,
soon I'll proclaim
life ain't fair
and c'est la vie
I mean it's the case
but what else is there to do
when it smacks you in the face
my ship is busted and I want to go home
but soon I will be dead and alone...
My ship is busted
and I'm stuck in space
went up some time ago
had to leave this place
luckily I'm lucky, see
cause I've failed to see
whats in front of me
the fact that I
cannot survive
off planet
for long, alive
so for now I'm
unaware,
soon I'll proclaim
life ain't fair
and c'est la vie
I mean it's the case
but what else is there to do
when it smacks you in the face
my ship is busted and I want to go home
but soon I will be dead and alone...
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Fuck it
Fuck it
Queens of the stone age My god is the sun
I dropped it
but hell I'm trying to pick it back up
if you can't get that...
well you kind of suck
It's easy for the gears to break
for things to go awry
I thought I could patch it up
but then was like why
the fire of life is still burning bright
it breaths new life in me
and I'm not dead yet
so let me be
or better yet
set me free
allow me to be
all you see in me
encourage it
command it to grow
try to understand it
and please let me know
people are like plants
we need a little water
with a little sunlight
we grow taller
I want all want what this world has to offer
I want to grow strong
we could grow off each other
we can do no wrong
over complication muddies the path
lets just take action
I was never too good at math.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Blind legless sheep
Blind Legless sheep
Muse soldier's poem
Muse soldier's poem
Beautiful, bashful
full of glee
I saw the problems
and let them be.
Inconvenience
it is a drug.
I only want
soft love.
Take the gun from my face
I will comply.
You can have my soul
I don't want to die.
My life's dystopian
Orwell says
we sheep are blind
and have no legs.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Don't forget
The most beautiful words
that I have scrawled on a page
I wrote when I was young
and not ripe with age
I hope as I mature
I do not become blind
to hopelessly hopeful love
of the youthful kind.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
A Mutt Story
I'm a product of a public education system and bad parenting
I'm not a pedigree...
not much more than a mutt
but as proud as a mutt can be
here's just a little insight
on what it's like to be me...
I'm not a pedigree...
not much more than a mutt
but as proud as a mutt can be
here's just a little insight
on what it's like to be me...
The Green Ocean
The Green Ocean
Take a breath when you are born
Take a breath when you are born
cause soon you will start to sink
A sea of life on earth
often it can stink.
Swimming here is very much a task
it can be very hard,
clawing past your peers
for air, you can starve.
Climb upon your family
lest they hold you back
lest they hold you back
scratch past your friends
or be forced to digest their flak.
disguise your tears with cynicism
for this is life
rot your innocence with criticism
cut childhood out with a knife.
The world is a sea of life
and it's easy to drown
hit the bottom of the sea
only bodies to be found.
People here must often fight
must scratch and kill
swim to the top of the ocean
if need be against others will.
It will pain you morally
it might even hurt
once you reach the top
then you can contemplate the worth.
If an eye for an eye is what is true
then oceans reflection stares back at you.
rot your innocence with criticism
cut childhood out with a knife.
The world is a sea of life
and it's easy to drown
hit the bottom of the sea
only bodies to be found.
People here must often fight
must scratch and kill
swim to the top of the ocean
if need be against others will.
It will pain you morally
it might even hurt
once you reach the top
then you can contemplate the worth.
If an eye for an eye is what is true
then oceans reflection stares back at you.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Sand Storm
Sand Storm
Eaves,You
I can't freeze time forever
or hold strong to the pass
Be bold now for the future
goddamn it move fast
The sands are shifting
they will sting your eyes
Its ok
it hurts less then lies
in the desert of time
you are next
forever in line
hoping to forget
hold fast to love for it is fleeting
keep eyes open for what you're needing
Life's too short for all these why's
we run together for our lives
or perhaps we run just to live
some type of purpose it must give
Wrestle the beauty from all that is rotten
Grasp eternity in what is forgotten
Hold out an arm for the downtrodden
Slow down
time is ever constant
make you're mark
cause you're conscience
Eaves,You
I can't freeze time forever
or hold strong to the pass
Be bold now for the future
goddamn it move fast
The sands are shifting
they will sting your eyes
Its ok
it hurts less then lies
in the desert of time
you are next
forever in line
hoping to forget
hold fast to love for it is fleeting
keep eyes open for what you're needing
Life's too short for all these why's
we run together for our lives
or perhaps we run just to live
some type of purpose it must give
Wrestle the beauty from all that is rotten
Grasp eternity in what is forgotten
Hold out an arm for the downtrodden
Slow down
time is ever constant
make you're mark
cause you're conscience
It's my tomorrow
you ain't the atom that stands so tall
yet so small
somehow you ain't above it all
I weep for sheep
as the night sky blooms
I awake to the day
that always comes too soon
Life is light at night alright
The truth comes in sets of three
April, June and November
till then let me be
Sleep shall come
for those who are weeping
I encourage you to get some happy
while the cruel are still sleeping.
Monday, March 18, 2013
The company of a bully
The company of a bully
"The Alcoholic" by Royksopp
No one ever comments on how bullies are better off
even though it might be true
I don't want them to laugh at me
better to make fun of you
he feels bad and that's ok
cause hes not me anyway
I have friends and that's because
I treated you so often like crud
you developed a complex yea that sounds scary
I'm over here dealing with popularity
you think of suicide yea what else is new
Sometimes I guess think of it too
you need therapy oh that's a shame
do you tell your counselor that I'm to blame
socially awkward, charismaticaly tardy
is your life some kind of pity party
did I mess up your society thing
you angry you've lost and I win?
yea
sure
I can see that too
I get to hang out with people who hate you
mostly causes I told them to
so they wouldn't turn on me
so I wouldn't be subject to being teased
even so we make fun of each other
always keeping each other down
battles for dominance
whenever where around
I know your pissed
cause you don't hang with fake people
who smile to your face
then try to eat you
I can see why your angry
you don't keep up with fads
where your judged not by what you know in books
but what you carry in shopping bags
I see you
I see your disdain
you want to be part of shitty click
so badly it's lame
well you can have it
I'd give it away
if I didn't know I was trapped
and that my life's here to stay
so loser
don't envy me
I may have called you a faggot
but at least your free.
"The Alcoholic" by Royksopp
No one ever comments on how bullies are better off
even though it might be true
I don't want them to laugh at me
better to make fun of you
he feels bad and that's ok
cause hes not me anyway
I have friends and that's because
I treated you so often like crud
you developed a complex yea that sounds scary
I'm over here dealing with popularity
you think of suicide yea what else is new
Sometimes I guess think of it too
you need therapy oh that's a shame
do you tell your counselor that I'm to blame
socially awkward, charismaticaly tardy
is your life some kind of pity party
did I mess up your society thing
you angry you've lost and I win?
yea
sure
I can see that too
I get to hang out with people who hate you
mostly causes I told them to
so they wouldn't turn on me
so I wouldn't be subject to being teased
even so we make fun of each other
always keeping each other down
battles for dominance
whenever where around
I know your pissed
cause you don't hang with fake people
who smile to your face
then try to eat you
I can see why your angry
you don't keep up with fads
where your judged not by what you know in books
but what you carry in shopping bags
I see you
I see your disdain
you want to be part of shitty click
so badly it's lame
well you can have it
I'd give it away
if I didn't know I was trapped
and that my life's here to stay
so loser
don't envy me
I may have called you a faggot
but at least your free.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Earth Love
When I was little
the government passed a law saying that all life partners were to be picked at the age of ten
this was simple
courting, dating, marriage...
was complicated
all the children were brought to a room
a warehouse of sorts
there where no adults
no one was allowed to be there when we picked
not even our parents
...
who knows what to look for when put on the spot
some people say ten isn't old enough to know anything
much less to know about love
we scampered and scurried for what seemed like days
boys fought
hell at that age
the girls fought too
looking back on it I think we were all scared
and somehow through all the chaos
and games of tag
I found you...
I'm not sure if it was love at first sight
I was only ten
some say it takes a ten year old to believe in something crazy
like love at first sight
I don't know
what I do know is
from that moment on
you were my first choice for kick ball
and soccer
and life
if I'm team captain
you're always my first pick
the government passed a law saying that all life partners were to be picked at the age of ten
this was simple
courting, dating, marriage...
was complicated
all the children were brought to a room
a warehouse of sorts
there where no adults
no one was allowed to be there when we picked
not even our parents
...
who knows what to look for when put on the spot
some people say ten isn't old enough to know anything
much less to know about love
we scampered and scurried for what seemed like days
boys fought
hell at that age
the girls fought too
looking back on it I think we were all scared
and somehow through all the chaos
and games of tag
I found you...
I'm not sure if it was love at first sight
I was only ten
some say it takes a ten year old to believe in something crazy
like love at first sight
I don't know
what I do know is
from that moment on
you were my first choice for kick ball
and soccer
and life
if I'm team captain
you're always my first pick
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Sell me the fire and I'll rock the flame
Sell me the fire and I'll rock the flame
here is your rap :) and here is the beat it's written too
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLEvgxk9aCU
You say your hot like fire
what do you know of flame
yall is some fake ass niggas
your swaggers hella lame
I'll teach you bout some fire
I'll tell you how to burn
I'm like a kugelblitz
you bout to stop and learn
A fucking globetrotter
I see the world view
you think your something special
earth barely knows you
I've been to fucking places
places wish they could go
I've seen a world that
...only god knows
and could you even touch that
do you really compare
nah this is fucking math
and you are hardly there
and we ain't talking numbers
were talking fractions see
add two of you
that don't make one of me
cause I am known as Tanya
that's Tanya with a T
and when it's said and done
you will remember me
I am the brightest start
I am the shining sun
bravado suicidal
so when I say so run
and when your running player
don't have a heart attack
life's been tough on me
so I giving you no slack
but that shits good for you
like running 50K
don't look at me like that
I do that shit like everyday
you impressed yet
it's fucking cause I'm real
and do I make you horny
that's all of this sex appeal
I see you hush mode nigga
well what more can I say
I wasn't born a gangster
but shit thats c'est la vie
here is your rap :) and here is the beat it's written too
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLEvgxk9aCU
You say your hot like fire
what do you know of flame
yall is some fake ass niggas
your swaggers hella lame
I'll teach you bout some fire
I'll tell you how to burn
I'm like a kugelblitz
you bout to stop and learn
A fucking globetrotter
I see the world view
you think your something special
earth barely knows you
I've been to fucking places
places wish they could go
I've seen a world that
...only god knows
and could you even touch that
do you really compare
nah this is fucking math
and you are hardly there
and we ain't talking numbers
were talking fractions see
add two of you
that don't make one of me
cause I am known as Tanya
that's Tanya with a T
and when it's said and done
you will remember me
I am the brightest start
I am the shining sun
bravado suicidal
so when I say so run
and when your running player
don't have a heart attack
life's been tough on me
so I giving you no slack
but that shits good for you
like running 50K
don't look at me like that
I do that shit like everyday
you impressed yet
it's fucking cause I'm real
and do I make you horny
that's all of this sex appeal
I see you hush mode nigga
well what more can I say
I wasn't born a gangster
but shit thats c'est la vie
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
When you fall
Music by Tom Scott
for me to catch you
is this the only way?
am I only a safety net
for when you go play?
why can't I catch you
feet firmly on the ground
when your not falling
you can't see me around
why can't I have you
unless you need me
only when your in trouble
do you bleed me
I'm yours to bleed
every single day
not only when you need me
but come what may
always beside you
and yet you insist
I only hold you
when you slip
only with you
when you fall
you prefer to stand with strangers
when you stand tall...
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