Saturday, December 14, 2013

Metal Solitude

Metal Solitude
Thom Yorke- Analyze

Grit them teeth and prepare to struggle
the path is plot and riddled with trouble
in winding roads you are befuddled
wicked thoughts begin to double.

Buried under skin deep and thick,
all and all be done with it
stab and sheath your knife so quick,
patience and practice so delicate.

Descend on them and begin to devour
it is now the witching hour
in your mouth the blood will sour
you've assimilated the horror.

Paranoid, bipolar
we are schizophrenia
we pretend to see them, they pretend to be them
and all of us seem to bend.

Dance in fields and leaves of green
the shells of cicadas and wasted things
eternally trapped in the coffin of time
all wrapped up in twisted minds.

Smile and pretend and try to remember
mental towers that last forever
happy thoughts of sweet surrender
things you do that result in pleasure.

Your coil, it betrays you
you could very well be lost
capable of being discarded
a void of endless frost.

Hold true to your inner warmth
something uniquely you
something to keep you stable
so you don't get confused.

The mind can be a scary place
you are mostly all alone
and though this place can be macabre at times
it's your trap your tomb and home.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

The New and Old Dreams

The New and Old Dreams

Iron and Wine-Such great heights

If it's real and you can feel it

then maybe it will stay

but if it dreams

then it will likely fade away...

in time

all things die

or maybe change

the dreams of yesterday

what do they mean?

energy is lost from all that is real

everything you touch

and everything you feel

the convictions of the past

what do they mean to you

how much do the old dreams shine

compared to the new?

and should you feel guilty

when the new dawn comes to?

Monday, November 18, 2013

So I knew this girl...

So I knew this girl...
Malcom Mclaren-About her

Sure she wasn't Bansky in a skirt
or a fan of Miyamoto

she was kind of an awkward flirt
but she was the daughter of the moon though...

Came down from space
and fell in love with a rat

who was so turned around
he didn't know where his tail was at

the rat couldn't look at the moon princess
for she was far too bright

she was nice to him
cause she reflected the suns light

he would make up excuses
on why they couldn't be together

saying rats should be with rats
that it had been this way forever

but the moon princess was patient
she did not leave his side

even when the rat was selfish
and hid to save his pride

but one day,
the moon came down

and told the princess
that a prince had been found

"come back home daughter
and have a life"

"people would look down on you
if you were a rats wife"

conflicted and torn
the princess ran

she went to the rat
and said "here I am"

"we could be together
if you would only try"

"I can't speak for the others
but I would stay by your side"

The rat looked at the princess
in all of her splendor

and just when he thought he might surrender
he looked at his tail and swallowed his pride

and he turned away from the princess
and proceeded to lie

"rats should be with rats
or didn't you know"

"and i'll always be a rat
so you should go"

the princess left that day
without saying a thing

she went back to the moon
and took the prince's ring

She lived happily ever after
or so the people said

to this day the rat can't get her from his head...

Monday, November 11, 2013

Trying to catch gold

Trying to catch gold 

The Neighbourhood-Sweater Weather

I'm blind to the future

and I cannot foresee

If whats on the horizon

is good for me

I'm half ostrich

so no doubt

with my head in the sand

the world turns about

opportunity's fly overhead

and I might miss a few

though I'm fairly sure

the universe will,

bring something new

as you grow older

doors only close

which is unfortunate

cause your braver as you grow

to all things in my past

half a heart of sorrows

while peering to the future

I look towards tomorrow

with hands open wide

I'll try to grab hold

desperate to reach anything

but hoping I'll catch gold

cause life is short,

precious

and sweet

I just want to live and feel

like I am complete

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Bro

Bro
Deerhunter-Coronado

Bro you need to go.
Shes there and shes looking at you bro.
You'll lose your chance if you don't go.
The things you'll miss, you'll never know.
Have drink and go with the flow.
A few more and you'll confidence will grow.

Bro if your not sly your chances will die.
Fail to act now and surly you'll cry. 
If you don't do it now, later you'll ask why?
You're a catch, it's no lie
The worst thing you could do is not act and not try.

Bro shes here but you got to remember.
You gotta fly, it's now or never.
Best case scenario you'll be together.
Worst case scenario your alone forever.

Bro whats wrong, soon she'll be gone.
Whats your problem whats taking you so long?
Jeez your pathetic, now whats wrong?
This is how you know that you are weird and you don't belong.

Bro what, is the pretty girl too good for you?
Hey bro whats your world coming to.
You ready for a life of solitude?
You happy you'll never see her nude?

Bro is this all you plan to be?
Lack luster and melancholy.
All cause you can't get pussy?
Because you let down your biology?

Bro don't you get it
you're suicidal
pussy is purpose
that shits survival.

Bro you'll be unhappy for all of your life.
All that matters is sex and a wife.
Cut everything else out with a knife.
or settle for a world of pain and strive.

Bro.

This is our world fucking get use to it.
No one cares unless you fuck or you screw it.
Make fucking money and then fucking do it.
The worth of a man must be proven.

This is our lot in life I hope you understand.
So dominate and prove your a man
and if you have doubts or questions to speak
man up and bury that shit deep...

Bro...

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Friendship Blanket

Friendship Blanket
Fleet foxes Sun it rises


The sound we hear when no ones around

that's the sound of our thoughts hitting the ground

the sound of reality bearing down on thee

so to speak

it makes you think

and makes you shrink

at the thought of brothers

no need for cover

you are one of others

a product of lovers

in warmth you'll be smothered

for all the trouble it's worth,

life's not meant to be experienced

through the ideas of a few

open your heart

let in someone one new

being alone

is like being sick

it only hurts

and it kills quick,

let friendship

be your blanket

allow it to cover,

share your life

with new people

and in the warmth of others.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

That new love

That new love
Air-Run


My girl ain't into that new love

but I'm scared to let her go

my girl prefers kisses to hugs

and sun to snow,

shes delicate...

and I don't want to hurt her

cause I'm dirty like mud

and shes clear like water,

my girl ain't into that new love

full of metal and green

shes not into technology

or all the shit that I've seen,

doesn't want to be sullied

doesn't want to hurt

doesn't want to be bullied

or become one with dirt,

won't be objectified

will not be shared

refuses to do pornography

but still seems to care,

my girl ain't into that new love

and I'm not sure what to do

because I've been corrupted by new love

part of me wishes to destroy you,

to see you dirty

and watch you ache

to see you sullied

and feel you shake

to hear you moan

and watch you squirm...

If you fall in love with mud

then you become a worm...

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

The Goblins of Jund

 The Goblins of Jund (getting there by flying lotus)

When the moon is red and glows in the sky

and the mountains sing with fire on high

when the dragons slumber nears it's end

and the high shaman locates it's den

The goblins of Jund begin their trance

they drink and sing and start to dance

down the mountain the goblins come

the festival is short and soon will be done

tears are shed but only a few

they smile at the chance to be born anew

the goblins of jund one by one

are devoured by dragons till their all gone

to be eaten by a dragon is the highest honor

they jump at the chance like there wont be another

those who witnesses the spectacle have yet to understand

but to feed someone is love and love is grand.



A Busted Ship

 A Busted Ship

My ship is busted

and I'm stuck in space

went up some time ago

had to leave this place

luckily I'm lucky, see

cause I've failed to see

whats in front of me

the fact that I

cannot survive

off planet

for long, alive

so for now I'm

unaware,

soon I'll proclaim

life ain't fair

and c'est la vie

I mean it's the case

but what else is there to do

when it smacks you in the face

my ship is busted and I want to go home

but soon I will be dead and alone...








Sunday, August 25, 2013

Fuck it

Fuck it 

Queens of the stone age My god is the sun

I dropped it

but hell I'm trying to pick it back up

if you can't get that...

well you kind of suck

It's easy for the gears to break

for things to go awry

I thought I could patch it up

but then was like why

the fire of life is still burning bright

it breaths new life in me

and I'm not dead yet

so let me be

or better yet

set me free

allow me to be

all you see in me

encourage it

command it to grow

try to understand it

and please let me know

people are like plants

we need a little water

with a little sunlight

we grow taller

I want all want what this world has to offer

I want to grow strong

we could grow off each other

we can do no wrong

over complication muddies the path

lets just take action

I was never too good at math.




Sunday, August 4, 2013

Blind legless sheep

Blind Legless sheep
Muse soldier's poem

Beautiful, bashful

full of glee

I saw the problems

and let them be.

Inconvenience

it is a drug.

I only want

soft love. 

Take the gun from my face

I will comply. 

You can have my soul

I don't want to die.

My life's dystopian

Orwell says

we sheep are blind 

and have no legs.


Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Don't forget

The most beautiful words

that I have scrawled on a page 

I wrote when I was young

and not ripe with age 

I hope as I mature 

I do not become blind

to hopelessly hopeful love

of the youthful kind.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

A Mutt Story

I'm a product of a public education system and bad parenting

I'm not a pedigree...

not much more than a mutt

but as proud as a mutt can be

here's just a little insight

on what it's like to be me...

The Green Ocean

The Green Ocean 

Take a breath when you are born

cause soon you will start to sink

A sea of life on earth

often it can stink.


Swimming here is very much a task

it can be very hard,

clawing past your peers

for air, you can starve.


Climb upon your family

lest they hold you back

scratch past your friends 

or be forced to digest their flak.


disguise your tears with cynicism

for this is life

rot your innocence with criticism

cut childhood out with a knife.


The world is a sea of life

and it's easy to drown

hit the bottom of the sea

only bodies to be found.


People here must often fight

must scratch and kill

swim to the top of the ocean

if need be against others will.


It will pain you morally

it might even hurt

once you reach the top

then you can contemplate the worth.


If an eye for an eye is what is true

then oceans reflection stares back at you.










Sunday, April 28, 2013

Make it beautiful

If you plan to kill
     me, all I ask is that you
                    make it beautiful

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Sand Storm

Sand Storm

Eaves,You 


I can't freeze time forever

or hold strong to the pass

Be bold now for the future

goddamn it move fast

The sands are shifting

they will sting your eyes

Its ok

it hurts less then lies

in the desert of time

you are next

forever in line

hoping to forget

hold fast to love for it is fleeting

keep eyes open for what you're needing

Life's too short for all these why's

we run together for our lives

or perhaps we run just to live

some type of purpose it must give

Wrestle the beauty from all that is rotten

Grasp eternity in what is forgotten

Hold out an arm for the downtrodden

Slow down

time is ever constant

make you're mark

cause you're conscience



It's my tomorrow

you ain't the atom that stands so tall

yet so small 

somehow you ain't above it all

I weep for sheep

as the night sky blooms

I awake to the day

that always comes too soon

Life is light at night alright

The truth comes in sets of three

April, June and November

till then let me be

Sleep shall come 

for those who are weeping

I encourage you to get some happy 

while the cruel are still sleeping.

Monday, March 18, 2013

The company of a bully

The company of a bully

 "The Alcoholic" by Royksopp

No one ever comments on how bullies are better off

even though it might be true

I don't want them to laugh at me

better to make fun of you

he feels bad and that's ok

cause hes not me anyway

I have friends and that's because

I treated you so often like crud

you  developed a complex yea that sounds scary

I'm over here dealing with popularity

you think of suicide yea what else is new

Sometimes I guess think of it too

you need therapy oh that's a shame

do you tell your counselor that I'm to blame

socially awkward, charismaticaly tardy

 is your life some kind of pity party

did I mess up your society thing

you angry you've lost and I win?

yea

sure

I can see that too

I get to hang out with people who hate you

mostly causes I told them to

so they wouldn't turn on me

so I wouldn't be subject to being teased

even so we make fun of each other

always keeping each other down

battles for dominance

whenever where around

I know your pissed

cause you don't hang with fake people

who smile to your face

then try to eat you

I can see why your angry

you don't keep up with fads

where your judged not by what you know in books

but what you carry in shopping bags

I see you

I see your disdain

you want to be part of shitty click

so badly it's lame

well you can have it

I'd give it away

if I didn't know I was trapped

and that my life's here to stay

so loser

don't envy me

I may have called you a faggot

but at least your free.








Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Earth Love

When I was little

the government passed a law saying that all life partners were to be picked at the age of ten

this was simple

courting, dating, marriage...

was complicated

all the children were brought to a room

a warehouse of sorts

there where no adults

no one was allowed to be there when we picked

not even our parents

...

who knows what to look for when put on the spot

some people say ten isn't old enough to know anything

much less to know about love

we scampered and scurried for what seemed like days

boys fought

hell at that age

the girls fought too

looking back on it I think we were all scared

and somehow through all the chaos

and games of tag

I found you...

I'm not sure if it was love at first sight

I was only ten

some say it takes a ten year old to believe in something crazy

like love at first sight

I don't know

what I do know is

from that moment on

you were my first choice for kick ball

and soccer

and life

if I'm team captain

you're always my first pick


Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Sell me the fire and I'll rock the flame

Sell me the fire and I'll rock the flame

here is your rap :) and here is the beat it's written too

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLEvgxk9aCU


You say your hot like fire

what do you know of flame

yall is some fake ass niggas

your swaggers hella lame

I'll teach you bout some fire

I'll tell you how to burn

I'm like a kugelblitz

you bout to stop and learn

A fucking globetrotter

I see the world view

you think your something special

earth barely knows you

I've been to fucking places

places wish they could go

I've seen a world that

...only god knows

and could you even touch that

do you really compare

nah this is fucking math

and you are hardly there

and we ain't talking numbers

were talking fractions see

add two of you

that don't make one of me

cause I am known as Tanya

that's Tanya with a T

and when it's said and done

you will remember me

I am the brightest start

I am the shining sun

bravado suicidal

so when I say so run

and when your running player

don't have a heart attack

life's been tough on me

so I giving you no slack

but that shits good for you

like running 50K

don't look at me like that

I do that shit like everyday

you impressed yet

it's fucking cause I'm real

and do I make you horny

that's all of this sex appeal

I see you hush mode nigga

well what more can I say

I wasn't born a gangster

but shit thats c'est la vie

















Tuesday, January 15, 2013

When you fall


Music by Tom Scott


Why do you have to fall

for me to catch you

is this the only way?

am I only a safety net

for when you go play?

why can't I catch you

feet firmly on the ground

when your not falling

you can't see me around

why can't I have you

unless you need me 

only when your in trouble

do you bleed me

I'm yours to bleed

every single day 

not only when you need me

but come what may

always beside you 

and yet you insist

I only hold you

when you slip

only with you 

when you fall

you prefer to stand with strangers

when you stand tall...