Life on a pillow

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He said, "What would you say if I said I was here to save you"? I told him "I would say you were crazy no one can save me but me and someday soon I will be free". Then he smiled, But to be honest I don't know what he had to be smiling about. Here I was on top of a building scared out of my mind. Time was running out and I couldn't be sure if I had the energy to press the snooze button on life again.

Do you always come up here bare foot? He asked. Concrete feels more real to me then grass you know. It's rough and it's solid its everything real. "Real can't be soft"? He said admiring the city view looking no where at me. I was pissed now why would he come up here to start asking me all these questions, he doesn't even look me in the eye as he talks infuriated I yell "whats so real about soft Life isn't soft". Yea he said "Life isn't soft". "Especially if your the girl that walks barefoot on concrete" he said looking at me with a smile.

"Fuck it..." I said as I let go. "Fuck it I hate him... " I said as I fell. I don't like rough but it's all I know, It figures that pavement is the way that I'll go. Why not even in the end couldn't someone be nice, someone be sweet, ...soft. I mean I've known him since... wait.

As I fell with the pavement was fast approaching it dawned on me that I didn't even know the boy our first meeting would be our last. This realization was rough as rough as the pavement I would soon be colliding with. Suttle with no remorse this was life in it's purest form. Why, why did this have to happen He said he was here to save me. Yet he didn't know me, could he tell I was going to jump was he trying to talk me down? But I jumped because I thought he was being cold. This is life in it's purest form.

But I didn't understand it in the end I wished for something soft, in the end I threw it away. A single tear is all I have left to offer the world.

If I closed my eyes now maybe. Life would forgive me maybe life would let me take it all back

I lay in grass now I see no gray the earth is green I think I like it this way. "Green is a cool color" he said. "yea" I said "I really like it"

I was dress in a white dress powerless to get up perfectly content to lay here forever the grass is the only place I wanted to be.

"Thank you for saving me" I tell him

Are you crazy? he said

What? I ask a little confused

"If you were to ask me if I could save you..."

"I would say you were crazy no one can save you but you and someday soon you would be free."

After her said that I had many more tears to offer the world then.

The boy reached out and hugged me he said he was rooting for me.

to give it my best shot.

I opened my eyes then.

my pillow was soaked but that was fine because it was very soft.

I wear shoes on the concrete now. But I like to walk bare foot in the grass.

It's soft but rough enough to remind me whats real.

Which is the way I like it.